Chaotic Week Part 2

Tuesday September 1st
Jae and Hannah have offered us the jobs with the hagwon and they need an answer really soon. At this point our heads are spinning and we don't feel good about anything.
This past vacation in Canada I felt that our time in Korea was coming to a close in the near future. We were planning to work at our jobs until December and then be done for good. I felt I communicated to our families that we were going to be done soon as well.
The hagwon needs us to make a year long commitment which would take us til October 2010. There are a lot of risks we would need to make as the contract would work a little differently than those we've had in the past. The priority would need to be paying the rent for the church and we would be paid after the rent was covered. The area that the church/hagwon is located makes for a sure gold mine so we're not entirely concerned. There are parents already knocking on the door asking when it will open.
My heart and stomach are burning inside me. All indicators seem to pointing towards going forward with the hagwon/ministry, yet I just hurt so much inside. I'm having such a hard time with the year commitment. I have so many questions. I'm having such a hard time asking my family to let us go another year. I don't want to hurt them or cause them any pain.
We're desperately seeking God and searching God out through Scripture. I'm feeling so overwhelmed inside and so uneasy about the implications of saying yes to this opportunity, yet God seems to keep saying 'Be still' and 'don't worry' and 'leave the implications to me.'

Wednesday, September 2nd
We're not sleeping well and my stomach is in absolute knots. We are putting out fleeces and asking God for peace and leading and He seemingly keeps directing towards the hagwon. I still don't want to commit to another year in Korea, but I'm starting to wonder if this is the sacrifice God is asking of me. "Many are the plans in a man's heart, but it is the Lord's purpose that prevails" Proverbs 19:21. I know our emotions can often mislead and where we want to go is not always where God wants us to be. We sat down with Hannah today to talk about the contract and our internal struggle. Hannah confided that when she and Jae were in America for 3 years, they were then called on to stay an additional 2 years. She wanted to be home with family and the comforts of home, but God was calling them to stay. She said that those 2 additional years were a time of huge spiritual growth and closeness with God. Obedience is more important than following what's comfortable. We feel we're at those crossroads right now. Facing the decision of desperately wanting the comforts of home and desiring closeness with family, yet God is seemingly calling us to step out in faith, put everything on the line and say yes. I'm terrified. It hurts to talk to family right now. We don't have answers.