Chaotic Week Part 4

Friday September 4th
Continuing to give this to God. Still not sure about the details. Still having moments of inner anxiety, but peace that we are following what we believe is God's leading. We are continuing to ask for confirmation and even random little details are working together to point us towards working with the church/hagwon. Feeling a desire to distance myself from people who ask me a lot of questions. I don't feel I have many answers right now. Times with God are so great and I feel so much peace when I give it all to him. I'm not able to stray far at this point because my over analytical brain drives me crazy. Feeling like God is just saying to wait now.
I went out with Hannah and I am so blessed by our times together. She's pretty sick right now with the possibility of a brain tumour. She's got so many questions for God too and yet has so much joy. She told me that times like these make for really intimate encounters with God and she is simply revelling in them. That's how I've been feeling this past week too. She was praying over our situation last night and felt came across a verse that she felt was meant for us. "The secret things belong to the LORD our God, but the things revealed belong to us and to our sons forever, that we may observe all the words of this law." Deuteronomy 29:29 This theme keeps repeating itself. We want answers and I think we're supposed to trust God with the details we can't figure out. So difficult for me!
I have never been apart of a church like this before! There is an air of anticipation and God seems to be working in ways that I've only ever read about in books. We are becoming such a tight group of believers at this church. Our mid-week meeting together was so great this week. We sense God is really moving and yet there appears to be a lot of opposition and pain (which would make sense). God is blessing us in so many little ways through them!
I think my tendency in a time like this is to take a very practical approach and look at things from a worldly perspective. These people won't let me do that! I'm also starting to wonder if the reason we're to be living in a one-room apartment with Jenn and Jordan is so that encouraging friends are super close-by. They have been such a support this past week. They are so understanding and can hurt with us, but also won't let us simply bail out and take what appears to be the easy road.

My Vice-Principal called and asked to go out for dinner with me last night. Blake walked me to the restaurant (you know my navigating abilities :) and then my VP wanted him to stay with us. This woman is not a particularly easy woman to work for and I've had to work extremely hard under her. She speaks English and she heads up many English programs which means she's super involved in my work. She's like the all-seeing eye at my school. She's had problems with many other English teachers who can't handle her. I hate conflict so I've simply tried to bite the bullet and try to impress her this past semester. I guess it worked! She was so complimentary last night and I feel so encouraged. She also listened to Blake's situation and is now going after his school to restore what is due. She's a fierce woman of influence and I wouldn't want to get on her bad side. We are so thankful that she is now working for us!